LOST!!

Do you wish that you can just go back in time and fix things that you now know you screwed up. That is what I am wishing right now, and the thing that I would fix is all in college. I am not talking about friends or men, even though there are things there that I would also change, but my college education. I would have chosen a different major and took the path that I wanted since childhood, to teach, more specifically to teach math, as I realize a former classmate of mine is actually doing. Now I cant figure out how to fix this mess. I have over 10 math classes to take and don't know how to take them. All math classes at any school are offered during the day, but I have a full time job that pays the bills and gives me shelter, so I cant possibly just leave that. The other factor is financial; I don't know how to pay for the additional classes. More loans, more debt, but loans wont cover everything, so where does that leave me....Picking up an additional job to cover the rest. But that's not horrible, I am used to that...Working my ass off to spend my money on everything else but me. And this is the only thing I want to do at the present moment, is to teach middle school math, and at this point, it just doesn't seem feasible, and I am lost and depressed, and I don't know what to do or where to turn, cause the honest truth no one can help me. Like I have been for so much of my life, I am alone. No one can offer me a solution and I cant offer myself one. Maybe if I was in the city, I could do that fellowship program, but the city is the last place I want to be. So I don't have any options. So again, I am LOST!!! And depressed and frustrated. Is there where my life stops. Its not a bad life, I have a lot more than a lot of people, but its just not where I want to be. I thought my life would be different, that I would be somewhere else, but that's not the case. LOST...Is all I can say.