New Start

So, me and the ex-hubby are trying yet again. I hope this isn't a vicious cycle with me getting hurt in the end and Adele being further confused, because that is the last thing I want.

Right now, things are pretty slow moving, which I guess is a good thing. I need to see that he has changed and that he is giving this his all. Am I still scared, definitely. There are a lot of unknowns out there. Am I looking forward to the drama and stress that this girl will create? Not at all. Do I have to brace myself for it? Absolutely. Am I hoping that we will stand together on this? Yes. Am I hoping we will be stronger because of this? I am praying yes.

I want my family back, and that is what it comes down to. I keep hearing, life is too short to be unhappy and life is too short not to be with the person you love. I hope they are right and I can find happiness with the person that I love. I know many people wont agree with me doing this, and one person in particular will be extremely hurt once he finds out, but for once, I have to do what I think is right for me and no one else. As crazy as this may appear, it feels right to me.

I am praying that I have the strength to take on this burden of taking him back and trying to have trust and faith in him again. But truly, only time will tell if I am making the right choice and I am the only one that has to live with this choice.

Here's hoping.