It has been ages since I was last here, and since the last time I wrote, things have drastically changed, and for the better. At this point in my life, i have a beautiful baby girl, I own a house and I have a great fiancee.
Now, how did this all come about, well in a snip, ML contacted me on myspace, and usually when a random guy sends me a message, I never responded, but for some reason I did. Maybe because he was white and I was curious, maybe because he was polite and seemed genuine or maybe I was just bored at work and answered so that the day would go by faster. For whatever reason I responded that day, I am glad that I did because my life hasn't been the same then.
He was different, very honest and forthcoming, and that was refreshing. Even though I am a guarded person, the people I have dealt with in the past have been guarded also, so it was a relief to meet someone who laid all the cards out. We started right before I went to Barbados (now that's for a different post all together if i get there). He was on my mind for the entire trip and I could not wait to meet this guy. He had one vice that I hated, but I told myself that it could be worst and that maybe I could get over it. Well I cant get over it, but it has gotten better...on his end anyways. We met at the movies when I returned from my trip and we went to see Transformers and we hit it off well. I felt comfortable with him and he was easy to talk to and he was a complete gentleman. Open doors for me, tried to pay for everything, etc. We had our first kiss that night (but no tongue) and I had butterflies for the rest of the night. We were inseparable since that night - well not inseparable...i still needed my me-time and I took it of course.
Well things moved pretty quickly and I got pregnant almost immediately, and I knew that I was going to keep it, but i didn't know how he would feel about it and I was prepared to have this baby alone. It was hard at first and he took it hard, but after the shock wore off, we handled it like adults. We were stronger for the situation we were in and the love grew. We bought a house about 2 months before I gave birth and moved in together. Now that transition was rough on both of us, because it was like we had to get to know each other all over again, but in a different way. I was rough on me because 1, i was pregnant and 2, I had never lived with a boyfriend before. But we talked about our issues, dealt with them and moved on.
When I went into labor, he was there with me the entire time and I am grateful that he was and we welcomed our beautiful daughter into this world together. We love her more than anything and know that we made the best decision for our family once we held her. A couple of weeks ago we became engaged and we are getting married before the end of the year.
I know a lot of people may think that things are moving too fast, but we know that we are so in love with each other and that we don't want anyone else. We know that neither of us are perfect and we know that we have to communicate to make this work and that is what we do. We have overcome some trying times in such a short period of time to know that this is meant to last because others in our shoes would have probably walked away.
I don't know if i still believe in soul mates or not, or if you can have more than one, but i have met the man that i want to spend the rest of my life with and have no doubt about that. For the first time in a really long time, i am genuinely happy, and I thank God continually, because I am truly blessed!
